I'm not somebody who
tries to be someone I'm not. And I don't do that on principle. I am not capable. (I don't know how else to
describe it to you.)
But sometimes I do
try to be a little less of me. If I'm scared, nervous, shy, or unsure or myself
I just become very quiet (which is not always easy) and do my best to make sure
no one pays attention to me.
Then once I feel
safe I can be more of me and that's always fun. (I only save the all of me for
my favorite people.) The hard part is deciding when it's safe. And sometimes I'm wrong and that's also kinda
of scary so then I just become a little less of me.
My internal debate
is whether or not that is a bad thing to keep a part of me to myself and I can
never decide. Every once in a while I let my guard and it ends up being ok. But
other times it's not.
